Sweet Memoir

No you are not!

You are not going to be my sweet memory

You are too relevant in the now

To belong in my past

You are the words inscribed on this page

I beg you ask me not to flip

Sweet memory? NO

A memory cannot be merely sweet unless it rolls on into the now

Unless by stretching I can still touch

And by touching we can still hold

And in holding we can still feel each others skin resonate

The shivers within

And the spikes down the spines

A memory cannot be merely sweet

Unless by remembering we can see each other now

And in seeing you can be wrapped in my armpit

And in so doing be close

And be near and be dear anytime anywhere

This memory cannot be merely sweet

Because distance has taken his place

And time has split our union

And the spirit that brought me to you

Has taken you from me

It cannot be a sweet memory

Because that may be all there will ever be

Because every time I stroll back

I’ll remember the smile

I’ll remember the face

I’ll remember the Cinderella dress

And the fairytale kiss

Every time I dare remember

I will remember I still owe you chocolates

And I still owe you a visit

And that we still have to catch some movies in the cinema

Sweet memory you say

It’s been merely a fortnight

But damn it I’ve felt your might

The messages keep coming back

My cell phone keeps ringing

I’m not tired of answering it

Neither are my fingers weary of punching keys

I have not told you any of the dreams yet

But I dare not remember cos they make my eyes wet

And now when I think about it

It’s not your going that hurts

It’s not your missing that kills

It’s not the fact that you’ve done in so little time

What mermaids haven’t done in their lifetimes

It’s just the thought of the truth

That like it or not

All that may remain

Are just memories in the head

You call this sweet memory, I don’t

Bittersweet it is

Forget my face if you so wish

Forget the voice that makes you mad forget the smile

Forget my name let it vanish into the air

Forget everything if your memory is not big enough

But your heart is big

Don’t try cos you can never forget how I made you feel

That’s my spell

And I cast it in your heart!